More Peace

Well I'm pleased to announce that school and life are going much better! I was a bit worried for a while about my physiology teacher. She was pretty scary and mean at times. I got snapped at for being a grand total of 1 minute late. I thought that didn't matter in college-pshh. But I've discovered that she is an absolutely amazing lecturer. Her lectures are more like discussions and she is very animated when she speaks. I actually look forward to going to class now. Physiology is quite interesting! I love learning about WHY and HOW things happen. Yesterday we learned the difference between saturated and unsaturated fat. Beware of so called healthy things like fake butter--it's really just un-saturated fat bombarded with hydrogen ions in a chemistry lab. They turn it into trans fat which is worse for you than saturated fat! Ok I'll stop boring you.

I have definitely been depressed lately about my friends leaving for college and the lack of change in my life. I have been at Cuesta for lets see....8 semesters so far. It starts to get old after a while. Most people are experiencing Cuesta for the first time-realizing how much better it is than high school. But for me Cuesta IS high school. I've been praying for peace and contentment with where I'm at. God has come through for sure. I'm feeling much happier and have been focusing more on the positive things instead of the negative. There are so many fun things coming up that I have to look forward too. The Family Campout and hiking Half-dome are going to be awesome! Thanks for reading my ramblings, hope you all are doing well.

xoxoxo Evelyn

Dear Mom & Dad

....It's Wednesday night and I ought to be reading for Sociology or sleeping but here I am writing. You are off in the wilderness hopefully having a blast, out of reach. It's pathetic how much I miss you. It's pathetic that tears are welling up in my eyes as I type this. Maybe it's just the stress of starting school and having to say goodbye to friends that has made this week especially emotional so far. I thought having you gone would help me feel more college-y but it has just made me realize I am going to have a tough time going away to college in the not-so-distant future. Most of my friends are excited to leave for school, to finally have some freedom and be on their own. I'm so happy at home. You guys are the BEST parents ever. Period. Thank you for being so wonderful, but I'm afraid you're gonna have to start doing something to annoy me so I will someday want to leave!

While I was in Tahoe I felt so at peace with life and so happy. But after being thrust back into the real world, life isn't so blissful. I've been looking through photo albums and wishing I was a carefree little kid again. I hate having to think about the future and big decisions. Dad-I know I am supposed to look at college/finding a career as an adventure but it is so hard for me sometimes. I am such a worrywart!

School started on Monday. I was signed up for a softball class but arrived to find it wasn't what I expected. The class is preparation for the season and I would have had to join a weight training class as well. I struggled with the decision of whether to drop the class. I wanted to ask you guys for advice but felt lame that I couldn't just make the decision on my own. I did in the end. I dropped it so I could have more free time, more time to study, to sew, to paint, and to visit friends on the weekends. Hopefully it was the right choice.

I know I will get back into the swing of school eventually. It has been amazing having Gretchen around, she is such a blessing in my life. Thanks for letting her live with us! Grandma is doing well, she told me she loved me tonight :) Well I'll just keep plugging away for now. Hopefully I'll get to the pile of laundry on the back porch soon. Can't wait till Sunday when you get home.

Love,

Evie Lou

p.s Wesley I miss you too!

Bittersweet feelings

Cuesta starts in 16 days. :( :( No me gusta. I really shouldn't complain since I got out in May but this summer has flown by like it does every year. I'm definitely in denial over school starting and a lot of my friends going away to college. I've just been so caught up in trying to hang out with them as much as possible that I don't know if I've had time to process that they're leaving. It will probably hit me hard this fall. That's not going to be fun. God is saving me from total depression by keeping Sarah Phillips and Lauren Page around this year. I'm so thankful for them. There are actually a lot of people from Slo High going to Cuesta so I have a feeling this should be the best semester yet. I will just miss my friends so dearly.

I've had such a great summer so far. Two trips to Mexico, one to L.A, a graduation party, and ample hang out time with friends. But I'm greedy and want more time. This year I have really connected and built some great friendships. Now, as many of them are going off to college I find myself wishing I had met those people sooner. But one year is better than nothing!

I still have one last hurrah before school starts....a senior trip to Lake Tahoe! I'm hoping it will be a great time to relax, recharge, and savor time with friends before school starts. xoxox Evelyn